Dreams of Success...

just like any other usual day.. i was sitting in the cafeteria of my office.. and few tables away i cud see a poster displaying a beautiful scene and words of encouragement as.. "Nothing is as real as a dream.. go for it..".. and i smiled..

having sips of cola with wafers mellowing the time.. i thought that i think everyday.. of my dreams.. goals.. ambitions.. success and achievement..

i admit... since the day i joined the company i hv become more ambitious... my hunger for success increased within no time.. and now i want to reach heights where one doesnt feel sad.. only proud and happiness takes u over..

sitting over there... i thought of penning down something.. a framed story or any fictional tale related to dream and beauty wasnt possible.. so after years.. i wrote a poem.. may be it wont have that smoothness that my earlier poems used to had.. but the person writing this has changed over the period of time.. and isnt the same.. i named it as..

"Dreams of Success"

as the dreams fly on
with my take on life
just to hold them once
everyday i strive

alone in the woods
i walk the dawning day
watching them go
behind the clouds and golden rays

and my senses tickle me to smile
with no reason i keep moving miles
for the catch, that i see every night
as i sleep, to welcome a day bright

with the wants and wishes
i close the day
with some aspirations
that glorify the way

ah! i am tired
feel lost and dead
screams of pain
now all over spread

into a river i dive to flow
been a person who needed to grow
like an age it seems now
success is my life, my beauty and vow!
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so.. now.. after writing this i realized hw much i am into my thoughts and dreams that i dont see the small happiness around me.. smiles of faces dont attract me anymore.. something is stoned within me that is not melting.. maybe with time as i rise to greater heights.. the sun wud melt it down..

after all success has the heat, that makes everyone bow..

Heart that Follows..

It was around 10 in the night.. when i had a random thought of yours from the vast pool of memories of good earlier times..

as i watched ur pic in orkut.. i suddenly realized instead of moving on.. i was moving back for u.. haphazardly i closed the window down and laid back on my bed. eyes closed.. and behind the darkness came ur image.. i was startled.. in a flash i went through all over again..

it was very unusual for me to react like this.. for a moment i thought i wont b able to get over you ever in my life.. cuz in my heart i knew i never wanted to.. but ur thoughts rose beyond the horizons and kept travelling in the clouds of memories..

broken n shattered.. i wish every second of my life.. although i miss ur presence in my life.. i shud never loose the treasure of memories that u gave me.. those are the shining stars that keep my nights glowing.. when the blueness of moon fades away.. a light that purifies my soul.. a reason to dream.. and love...!!

all that is left wid me is ur shape in my memories.. ur color.. ur eyes.. ur face and ur smile... and as i see them going away from me in my nightmares.. i run after them.. trying to stop u.. make u hold for a second.. just to confess what i feel.. but ur tears weakens me.. and with trembling heart i wake up.. disoriented and mindless i feel..

my music of life.. highs and lows.. is all inspired by you.. in this ocean where love is salty and hard.. a teardrop of ur love for me is as pure and divine as elixir.. but when i woke up.. all that i felt was something salty in mouth.. and wet cheeks..

clearly indicating.. i hv lost my drop of elixir.. and m now a diver in same ocean.. filled with salty liquid within.. whose depth cant be measured.. and where i will sink one night.. following my heart..

company of shadows...

We walk.. we move.. we sit.. stand.. run.. halt..! generally to see the path we move on.. we need light..

and being opaque.. as the rays of light hit you.. ur shadow gets a birth.. may be beside.. in front or behind.. it somehow gets attached to you and your journey.. and as u move on.. you see no-one but ur darker image covering it up with u..

many days gone by.. i saw myself standing still.. heading nowhere.. but now i can see a ray of light sourced from my destination.. i have to follow that.. its very dim. i can barely see the path that i need to cover.. and this journey is something that i have to cover alone..

its not that i fear solitude but its always better to have a companion to travel a path with you.. i took the first step.. and suddenly i got my companion.. a silent dark friend.. that had almost the same shape like mine, maybe in different ratios.. that frnd moved with me.. never talked.. and became prominent as i reached closer to the destination.. the intensity of light grew higher and so was my friend's darkness..

sometimes when i thought i m losing the way.. i stood still and looked at him.. he was always at the opposite side of the light.. being my compass i cud get the direction to move towards.. being a silent help.. he always showed me the actual meaning of friendship.. and every time the assurance that came from him.. "dont worry.. i am you.. and yours only.. keep moving..!!"..

i reached my destination.. and stood just below the sun.. and i saw my friend in the shortest dimensions.. i was confused.. but the moments of joy took over me.. and i went ahead.. leaving the destination and sun behind me..

its dark again.. i am waiting for the rays that would bring my friend back.. because.. "a journey continues... to reach a destination... that is unseen.. but close.. and i will reach there.. with my shadow accompanying me.. always..!!"..