ILP.. 11th Feb..

PLEASE DONT GO ON THIS PIC.. IT WAS TAKEN ONLY FOR FUN PURPOSE.. AND AS U ALL KNOW.. I DONT DRINK...!!!




probably the saddest day of my life.. some thing unusual was there in the air.. that never gave a right feeling.. since morning it was felt by me.. that this day wud be remembered by u for ur whole life... and that happened.!

the smile that u see in this pic is just momentary.. it was after all the bad was over.. those people who were caught cheating were terminated from the job.. so a lot of tears shed.. many sad faces dont give u a reason to be happy.. right..?

well above from that.. there was some different fact that captivated my mind throughout the day.. something that wont forget ever in my life.. something that has now changed my life to a very great extent.. something that no one wants.. the thing that tears u apart and hurts u most.

i hope you know P.S. ( if not.. follow my earlier blogs..).. well i proposed her today..

we were chatting on gtalk as we used to do.. i was on same laptop no. 19.. with ankit playing some bike game in his lappy.. yogananda and seenu busy in project work that was to be shown next day.. and me chatting.. but it turned out to b the chat of my lifetime.. not in gud sense but in true fact. after many years passed by.. since 2004 words that were unsaid.. were finally told..

the message was given.. she was made aware that some one still loves her with all his heart.. some one still remembers all her talks.. some one will always wait for a lifetime.. just for her.. and that "some one" was me..!!

well enuff of emotions pouring out that day.. aah.. i was feeling too nostalgic.. i had now other way to hide myself down... and the reply i got was as usual NO.. NEVER..
u don't know.. but i have heard the same answer many times in my dreams.. but this one did hurt!! it went straight to the core of my heart.. made a home and stayed.. NO.. NEVER..

came evening.. i wid animesh decided to have a beer.. as i knew he wont say no to BEER atleast.. we went straight to appolo.. and saw some setup at saurabh's place.. where abhishek was lying ill.. but everyone else were ready wid their bottles ready to be gulped down the thirsty throats. we got 1 beer each for ourselves wid some snacks and landed in B-2. anuroop saurabh swakshar manish and ravi dint had it.. but few of them were surely spectators of one of the beautiful nights of appolo villa.. people from all regions present there.. ( of course except faridabad guys.. ).. enjoying limitless fun the night had to offer..

i was trying to drink my pain.. but it only added to it... anirudh.. acting like the head of the family was sitting on the main side of the table and was smiling devilishly at my every drink. as the first one ended.. i was done with my brain cells.. they seemed to be died.. just like my soul that day.. they were not supporting me.. and that made me give my "thanks giving".

i started.. blabbered in between.. thanked everyone who made my life so pleasurable in the ILP.. and special note came for animesh.. that made him hide his face from the camera of his own cellfone. well it was all affection..

that was the first time i dared to touch second bottle.. it was too over in a few minutes .. and ordered for the third.. THEN... then something happened within me that i dint liked.. but from that corner.. anirudh was continuously saying.. "pii le jasmeeeet.. kuchh nahin hoga.. ghabra mat.. ".. but.. it wasnt my take. i puked.. and went to my place .. made a swimming pool there ( as all the roomies said) and slept.

i had no conscience whatsoever that happened after that.. cuz i was lost in the memories.. that i never remembered after that night.. :))

ILP.. few tests and Party..

okk.. so.. i left at the pain in eyes..


i cud see some people gazing at each other.. staring each others eyes and finding their path, to the depths of heart.. so that they cud b a part of each others lives.. but as destiny played its role.. all were divided..

i was heartbroken that night.. after lohri.. as i saw few sad hearts behind those smiling faces.. life showing me new phases.. that i hardly thought wud come my way..

so.. came the second test.. i cleared once again.. with same 58%.. haa haa.. no retests or revivas.. nothing.. now it was all about me.. my laptop no. 19 putty n orkut.. and for ankit n animesh... their flash games and old games like contra n all.. we were having the best time possible.. but few fell into the traps of retests.. kundu, gautam, manish, abhishek, richa, puneeta, shiv.. it was bit sad.. but nothing much cud hv been done regarding this..

so.. the day came.. friday.. 6th of feb.. the retest day.. every one was excited.. not bcuz of tests.. but bcuz of the party we were having that evening.. but never knew the day wud start in this passion.. all the candidates who were facing retests were placed in lab I and lab II.. rest were sitting in labs.. few minutes gone by.. i saw people coming out of the labs.. anger reflecting.. they were furious.. frustrated wid something..

when aware of the reason.. i felt so humiliated.. felt like i was carrying someone's burden on my shoulders.. as few were caught cheating.. in the most pathetic way.. well.. whatever u say.. pathetic or ignorant or absent-minded.. the fault done was crime now.. n penalty was.. the test was canceled and the people concerned were now under charge..

but what were all concerned about was.. what abt tonight's party..? who will come now..? i cud see kundu n richa.. like on the verge of breaking an eye tear.. depressed to the core.. i felt really bad for them.. day passed very saddy saddy.. i dint even do orkut that day..

came evening.. me manoj n kundu were the first of lot who went to venue place.. we were the hosts for the evening.. i had o move out for arrangement of flowers (the roses.. for auctioning).. so by the time i returned back.. everyone was bouncing on dance floor.. i was angry on kundu for sending me to arrange for flowers.. so i decided i wont dance.. i took a seat n watched others dancing.. then from somewhere in the dark.. richa sudeshna abira and divya came.. pulled my hand and asked me to dance.. i hesitated.. but then.. they were dancing.. n as a man i cant deprive b'ful women of their wishes.. i also danced..

my anger melt within a second.. i felt light in my heart.. n started enjoying the music.. we had a lot of pix that night.. few on the name of friendship.. and few on the name of FRIENDSHIP again.. :)).. then an announcement by kundu.. the auctioning of roses.. the hero was ANUROOP VIJAY.. he bought the rose for 650/- onlyyyy...

he was blushing.. carrying the sweetest smile of the lifetime... the name he took to gift his flower was also shocking to many people out there... abira.. the name was abira.. we appolo villa ppl knew who it wud b.. but no one thought of her name coming in limelight..

well.. they danced.. and kundu danced wid sudeshna.. n it was actually very funny.. :P i was smiling all the time.. then i decided to capture some spcl moments.. all AAO FRIENDS.. the chennai gang.. ankita shaurya puneeta along wid all of faridabad gang..

saurabh, anirudh, shiv dint turned out for the party.. god only knows why...

that night was a night of memories.. that night everyone had a blast.. party was great (afterall.. who arranged that..?? ).. i took a seat somewhere at the corner.. and saw people who came there.. in few weeks they were so close to us.. i never wanted that time to end..

i wished the music cud hv carried on for all my lifetime.. i wanted to live that moment forever.. but as the moon set higher.. we had to depart... on our own ways.. with our own life...

ILP.. Tests and Lohri mishaps..

what we heard from previous batches... oracle stream people were mostly the screwed ones in the second phase.. with a compulsion for scoring atleast 50% was hitting my mind like hell.. still i knew oracle is the field where i can show some metal..

came the first test.. after going thruu many dumps of java n all.. with all permutations possible.. i scored 58%.. the first step was cleared.. at first we thought that there is some probs with the database but.. it was all fine.. our understanding was bleak..

well it was an online kindaa test and results were instantly displayed on the monitor after u attempt ur qns and hit the deadly button "submit".. people wid great minds scored low and with damaged ones were seen playing with 70-80-90%.. few were laughing and few were carrying a rhy smile on their face trying to hide the disappointment they faced in those 90 minutes.. well.. but one can still find some happy faces around.. like puneeta.. anuroop ankit.. as if they beleived to give tension rather than facing them..

what to say..?? these people whom i never met in life before were changing me.. i wasnt the same as i was before i came here.. i understood professional life and now was able to differentiate between relationships... i developed some gud terms with everyone.. few names i still remember are ankita, puneeta,shaurya, shiv, bharat, abhijeet, akash, bharani, ankit, anirudh, santosh, sarrabh, SP, sawan, pooja, rohit, singhai, seenu, suri, yoga.. pheww..

the 2nd phase without one batch in Koel Campus.. was like no fun.. but we tried hard to make these days the most memorable ones in our life. The oracle batch.. 74D was a fun filled batch.. with the mocking characters like our CRs and funny ppl like suri and saurabh around.. one can definitely expect humor.. if not anything least.. Unix n Java.. were total fun..

always we were back benchers.. most of the times we were laughing only.. that made Unix LC to give a few future concerned speeches.. but i cud see few laughs on that one too.. Sudha.. our LC for oracle was one of the most brilliant peoples around.. querries going right in one go.. and live demonstration of any problem.. the learning cudnt hv been better..

but TG-1 was also no short on brilliance.. ankit yogananda srinivas n me.. were like the stars of her eye.. project explanation done by me.. i thought wud definitely had rose some standards of us and then the type casting solution by me and ankit..( although we were making a guess.. but a logical one.. :) ) was an amazement for the whole batch.. animesh n shiv also left no stone unturned to make things as funny as possible..

i started talking to new people now.. out of B-70.. bharat shiv n puneeta.. whom i rarely talked to in my 1st phase.. i came to knew.. were very gud ppl infact.. had some great evening time wid them in my second phase.. some times accompanied by shaurya and ankita.. days were very smooth.. if we left out studies..

and now talking about LOHRI.. it dint worked out according to the plan.. i called my cllg juniors just to show them how professional ppl enjoy.. but that spoiled the image of mine along wid everyone else's.. i dont want to take name.. but planning with girls for an event never makes a successful one.. still.. it started 2 hrs after the decided schedule.. where saurabh gautam opted to stay away.. after he saw it as a total mishap.. although he was excited enuff for that night.. i felt so sorry for him..

but the jabbys along wid appolos n bbsrs' saved the day.. richa abira sudeshna n ankit along wid few others kept the magic of night alive.. suvrantika arindam n appolo villa along wid preetam and vishal.. made every possible effort that this night doesnt wo waste.. we danced.. we grooved.. we moved..

and we were enjoying..!! still i can see some pain in few eyes.. that clearly descirbed their reason..