~~~Forever~~~

Previous part :- http://jasmit-arora.blogspot.com/2010/12/midnight-cup.html

The life of Jasbir has been a roller coaster ride since Shruti was once again the word on his lips.. the face on his heart and motive of his life.

he was seen smiling again.. the near and dear ones noticed a new charm in his behaviour and pulled his leg often. dark circles were gone.. as he reduced his working hours and started a routine of talking to Shruti over the night with his eyes closed. he felt he has taken birth again.. this time to be with with Shruti.. again.

It was sunday morning when his cell rang.. different ringtone. (For Shruti he had a different one) His boss called. He picked it up and answered .. "Yes boss.. .. now..? but I had different plans.. yes I knw its urgent..as always... yaa .. tomorrow off..? sure..? ok.. I will be there in an hour.. and boss.. thanks.."

he sprang out off the bed and rushed towards washroom. Got ready in minutes and dressed casually.. quickly wiped the dust off his bike.. kicked start it and started riding for office.. on sunday morning when his roommates were still snoring out the saturday night sleep.

he was all happy.. his boss promised him a Monday off for coming on that day.. Monday.. VALENTINE's DAY..!! he coudnt thank God much on that day..!

he happily passed over the day with earphones in his ears and listening to all romantic songs that he loaded in his cell phone last weekend.. and that were in repeat mode..
each good line of the song brought a smile on his face. Each song brought the face of Shruti in front of his eyes.. he would blindly stare the monitor.. and then after minutes he would blink and find himself in a different world.. that is without Shruti.. that would make him sad.. still the happiness in his heart kept him smiling..

as the work got over.. he mailed his boss and left the office.. Instead of lift he preferred stairs.. swiftly walking as he moved out of the office gate.. he felt the chill in air.. The clouds hovered around and gave a strong hint that they would rain...

as he was looking up he closed his eyes.. Shruti's face came instantly and impatiently he said.. "how much i love you.. " and then his cell started ringing..

It was Shruti who called.. he picked it up and she asked.."kii kar raye ho..? Kitthey ho..?" (What are you upto right now..? and where are you..? ).. to which he replied.. "Huney hii office to nikleya hana meri jaan.. ghar jaa reya c.." ("just came out of the office.. was on my way to home..")

"Office..? es waaste call ni kitta..? te Sunday nu kyuuuun..?"(Office..? thats y u dint call.. and why on Sunday..?)

"Kal di chhutti mil gayi hai.. kal shaami milde haan"..(got a day off tomorrow.. meet you in the evening..)..

and then he kicked start his bike and started moving on his way home..

Came the 14th of feb. his day.. the day he decided he would officially ask Shruti to be his Forever..

as the sun started to set down.. his feelings had a rise in his heart.. he was over whelmed with joy and excitement.. and courage binded them all with hopes of happiness that awaited him..

he pulled out the brightest white shirt he had in his wardrobe.. pulled out a fresh pair of jeans.. his musk perfume.. his Tag-Heuer.. and checked the credit card in his wallet..
then as he moved out of the home.. he looked up.. at the dark blue sky.. closed his eyes and remembered his Grandfather..

he knew God might be busy in hearing other concerns of people.. but his Grandfather was there only for him..

after few minutes.. he was there at the restaurant.. the table was already booked by Jasbir in the morning.. and he ordered coffee.. no.. tea.. no.. lemon tea.. no.. Lime soda.. no no.. yes.. Sweet Lime Soda.. as he killed minutes in wait of his love.. who arrived...

who arrived.. wearing a white evening gown and the most beautiful smile.. with the best eyes in the world that glitterd with happiness..

On seeing her Jasbir stood up.. and as she came near.. they were looking in each other's eyes.. they knew they dont had anything to say through words.. Jasbir took her face in his hands.. and slowly kissed her forehead and her eyes.. and then they hugged each other.. for the first time.. and this time Shruti said.. "I love you.." and the embrace grew stronger..

then when they released each other.. their eyes were wet.. they had rediscovered the love they had lost once, earlier in their life.. then Jasbir said..

"Shruti.. though I tried to tell you many a times that I love you.. somehow i always felt that you knew it already.. but today.. i believe I had to tell you this.. because you deserve to be loved.. and you should know that it is me who love you most in the world..

It is me who think about you each day and night.. each dusk and dawn.. each second and minute and each breath and blinks..

It is me who believes that I can love you till I exist.. that I can keep you happy till you are there.. and can make you forget each your pain..

and It is you.. who are the most beautiful one.. who resides in my heart where it beats.. whose face goes down with sun and rise with moon.. who makes my universe only as large as your eyes.. and its your name that is spelled out with my each breath..

Shruti.. I love you.. nad it is you who has made me to say this.. but please.. be mine.. forever.. say yes...!"

and as he stopped.. Shruti kissed him.. with tears flowing through.. and then mumbling with words she tried to say.. "i always tried to say Yes .. but i thought you always knew what was in my heart.. and..".. and tears started flowing like a stream of water.. and Jasbir wiped those tears and said slowly in her ears.. "This is the last time I am seeing you cry.. you deserve only smiles.." .. and she smiled while she cried.. and hugged him.. close to her heart.. with a promise to be with each other.. forever..

~~~Memories~~~

Jane.. she was a synonym of grace, beauty and affection to Russel.

every morning when he woke up.. he admired the beauty of Jane as she came fresh out of shower draped in her bath robe with water dripping her long locks with a smile on her face.. and as she came near him.. he used to look into her lovely eyes.. with all his love.. and then kissed them..

every morning he used to lie in Jane's laps.. playing with her cheeks ... and saying "I love you.." countless number of times.. because everytime he said this.. Jane used to blush.. pink.. her lips used to twitch between her teeth.. and then she wud smile..

There were days when both of them used to sit in front of each other and then looked at each other for hours and hours.. and tried to say something with their eyes.. and then note it down on a piece of paper.. to check if they cud communicate through eyes too..? and yes they cud..

it was their second year of their marriage.. and they had already travelled half of the world.. had been to most of the known places.. big statues, water falls.. mountains.. sea and desert.. and had some moments of theirs named to each place they visited.. they kissed and named each one the place where they were..

one day she found a letter that he wrote when he was just another kid living next door on the day before Valentine's day.. she smiled... and opened the letter... its been 8 years after that day.. that letter looked still very new.. very pure.. with thoughts, warmth and words of love by Russel..

it read..

"

I dont know.. yes.. i dont know what has made me write this letter to you.. and more that that.. what has given me such courage to give it to you.. and you reading this letter has taken a sack of burden.. of pain .. of desperation.. down.. off my heart..

its not a story of a day before.. or a week.. a month.. or a year.. its my life.. that started the day when i saw you.. it were you. smiling.. in the bright white frock that made you look like a princess.. which u r truly now.. and i have been the slave of this heart that treats you his queen now.

i know my words are wandering at different directions.. but all they want is to reach your heart..

I never knew when and how i fell in love with you.. may be i was supposed to.. may be it was destined.. but now i feel.. this is something that i always wanted to do.. to be in your love.. think of you..

i see you everywhere.. in each rose.. in the calm flame of the candle.. in the drops of rain.. such has been your love to me.. its been years and i see there is no escape to this.. but i was never before i was like this.. I fear.. if i lose you someday.. would i be able to survive..?

what if you can't be mine forever..? what if ...

i have erased all the questions from my life that hints your separation from me..

you are in my dreams.. my memories.. you and only you... my heart ponders for your love.. each beat says a single name.. "Jane". But still i dont know how to say to you.. that I love you..

whenever i see you.. my heart says me to hold you.. give you a hug.. keep you close to my heart. so that the hearts could talk.. with no words.. it wants me to come close to you.. so that you could see in my eyes that how much I love you..

days and nights are spent in your thoughts.. my eyes search your presence.. i want to make you mine.. cage you in my eyes.. so that i can look at you even though when they are closed.. also after i die..

complete my destiny.. give my life a meaning.. give me a reason to live.. reason to smile..

i still dont know what to say more.. but all i tried to say to you is.. "I love you.."

"

she was smiling and had tears in her eyes.. and then suddenly Russel came from behind.. and held her by her waist.. she turned around.. looked in his eyes.. and hugged him tight...

then after few seconds she asked him.."heard anything..?"

"what..? No.. but yes felt heaven.." he replied with his smile.. "let me try again.." and he hugged her again.. softly... feeling the love that brought them so close.. and then said.. "Oh yes.. i heard.. but tell me is that true..?"

Jane said.."Yes.. I love you.." and Russel completed it.."..and I always will..!"

~~~Midnight Cup~~~

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Jasbir was as usual late from his office.. he rang the door bell as he came..

his room mate.. who was on call with her girlfriend living two blocks away.. he came an opened the door.. winked at him.. and gave a fake kiss on fone to his girlfriend.. and then moved to his room.. normal scene that Jasbir was now used to..

his other room-mate was totally Skyped.. never ever he saw him talking without being in front of his laptop..

he looked at his watch.. it was Christmas today.. and found that almost everyone were connected to their gifts that Santa gave them years ago.. he went to both the rooms.. and said.. "Merry Christmas dude.." and both of them just waved at him.. with a smile.. but no one came and hugged him tight and say.. "Merry Christmas to u too bro.. cheer up.. life will change.. happiness is around somewhere.. :)"

he so much wanted to feel happiness again.. he thought.. Shruti might be very happy at her place.. as she never called him after she got married.. he also wanted to smile.. but felt no reason to do so..

he lied down on his bed.. closed his eyes..

the pictures of past started flashing.. school days.. with friends.. parties.. that night after 10 years.. the other morning.. and one common face in all.. Shruti's.. he suddenly rose.. and took out his pullover.. his gloves.. opened the door and went outside his home.. switched on his bike and started riding..

it was bone freezing cold outside.. and then started cursing himself.. and then headed towards the 24 hour cafe shop.. somewhere near the IT park of the city..

he parked his bike .. and went inside.. and then he saw.. whoa.. all tables occupied..

just when he was about to leave.. a couple stoop up to leave.. so a set of couch was now all vacant.. and he calmly placed himself on it..

he ordered a cafe latte for himself.. and suddenly saw a girl in Santa cap wearing red cotton jacket.. in sexy shorts and high boots.. pushed opened the door.. and shouted loudly.. "Merry Christmas people.. oh.. every one has got love with him.. good you.. " and then she tumbled on the floor..

she was totally drunk.. partying somewhere all night.. and then she thought to come and have a cafe.. to lighten up her mood.. after the breakup she had 2 hours ago.. in the disc.. where her now Mr. EX.. tried to do something something with her getting her drunk.. and she slapped him..

then he pushed her in some cab and asked the driver to drop her where ever she says..

this is not what Jasbir thought.. this was something that the girl said to him after she came to her senses..

oh yes.. she was on the floor..

as she fell down.. Jasbir rushed towards her.. and with the help of the staff.. picked her up and put her to the couch opposite to where he was sitting..

she opened her eyes after 5 minutes of feet and palm massage.. had some water.. and then Jasbir ordered a Mocha.. without sugar for the lady..

"u alright now..?" Jasbir asked her..

she just smiled.. pain was clearly reflecting in her eyes.. just when she was about to cry.. Jasbir took out his handkerchief and offered her.. and she shouted again.. "I am not crying..."

he laughed and kept it back.. "So.. what makes you so happy on this Christmas night..?..!"..

and then she said what I wrote above.. and on listening to this Jasbir tried to console her.. but then she broke down.. obviously she was on a high.. and that made her totally losing her sadness.. her pain.. that he calmly listened to..

by then her Mocha was served hot to her.. and she slowly started getting back to normal..

then they laughed.. shared some jokes.. and then she said .."your eyes tell that you are alone.. away from someone.. ur heart seems scattered and your smile curves dont reach ur eyes.."

"hmmm.. seems you closely observe people.."

"yes.. I do.. i like knowing people.. their feelings.. and hey.. tonight we share same.."..

Jasbir looked into her eyes.. they were beautiful.. then to her nose.. it was cute.. and her lips had the tenderness of rose and freshness of dew. then he looked at his watch.. it showed 5 A.M.

He then said..

"Wow.. thats a lovely view.." and she looked outside the glass walls of cafe.. it felt as if moon has got brighter for the moment.. light blue the morning was.. she was again smiling.. and with happiness in her voice she said.. "certainly it is.."

he said.. "I was talking about you..".. and she turned and looked at him..

"do you try your cheesy lines with everyone.. if yes.. then I wonder how you are single.." and she was smiling again..

he blushed.. and she caught him with pink cheeks.. "okay.. I give you another chance.. dont lose this one.."

to this Jasbir gave a deep thought.. and then said.. "had you been single.. I wud have never let you be.." and she immediately said.. "o yes i am single..".. and then she covered her mouth.. and this time he caught her shy of her words.. she tightly closed her eyes.. in disbelief to what she just said..

and then she felt her hands touched by Jasbir.. he held her hands.. and said "there is no hurry.. I understand the phase u r in.. its not even hours and i said something like that to you.. my mistake.. but u r so true.. so real.. so beautiful.. but yet as a dream to me.. u remind me of the feeling i used to feel once.. love.. and shared that with you.. forgive me if i am anyhow the reason .. for even the least bit of pain you have gone through..".. and then he took his hands back.. and asked the staff to come with the cheque.

he cleared the bill and stood up to leave.. she also stood up.. she was silent.. she came with him to the parking lot where he kept his bike.. and then said.. "can i have your number.. so that i can call you sometime when i have decided..?"

"yes sure.." he said and gave his number..

"do you mind dropping me home.. i live nearby only..".. and he agreed and rode to her place.. and then he looked in the mirror.. it was tilted a bit and clearly showed her face... and he saw her watching at the mirror.. their eyes told everything that was in their heart.. through the mirror..

and then they reached at her place.. "hmm.. you dont live too far from my place.. i live just few kilo meters away.." and he tried to smile.. but couldnt.. then he said.. " call me sometime.. I will wait.."..

and then he rode.. but suddenly he stopped.. took a U turn and came back.. she was still there..

he said.. "hey.. my name is Jasbir.. and yours..? Atleast I would like to know the name of the girl for whom I felt something.."

she smiled.. she knew whats her decision would going to be.. and she said.."Shruti.. my name is Shruti.. and I will call you soon.."..

listening to this his heart skipped beats.. the time seemed immovable .. and the moment froze..

he was looking into her eyes as her voice with her name echoed in his heart... she turned.. waved goodbye to him and went inside her home.. he also drove back to his place..

he went inside his room.. and lied on his bed.. and then his phone rang.. he picked it up.. "Hi its Shruti here.. ur Christmas friend.. and I would love to meet you again.. just to say you something.. because.. I think I love you.. will call you again.. " and she dropped the call..

he closed his eyes.. because the dream just began..