these days i am all surrounded by thoughts of my past. i am again reconnecting with people who hold a valuable part in my life.
most of all, with my family members.. I wasnt the best son.. i wasnt the best grandson and i wasnt the best brother. Though everyone told me that i am very close to hearts of them.. but when i was at home.. under their guidance.. i always thought of myself.
but as i moved out of home.. i realized what i lost in those most precious years..!! Those years when love was showered all over me,I kept standing under a roof.. and now i want to get drenched in same love again.. but my work.. my life isnt giving me that opportunity again..
My grand mother.. i call her DADIMA.. she is very old now.. and she is not literate enuff to read what i have written here.. my be my dad or my bro will narrate this to her... say her that i love her very much.. more than every one feel i do.
going 2 decades back.. i remember, she giving me a head massage every sunday afternoon.. when i used to wash my hair.. she used to move her cold fingers in my hair.. and so relaxed i used to feel. in the sunny afternoon of winters.. she used to sit with me and tell me many stories.. regarding her life.. regarding our culture.. regarding the life. She is the one who taught me to believe in GOD. She had a heart so soft that she never let dad raise hands on me... always standing like a wall between all the difficulties and me.
i loved to hear her when she used to say anything about her marriage experiences.. but used to hate her when she told me that i will also be married one day.. ( i hated girls at that phase of my life ).
many years have passed now.. now i see her once in 6 months... and it feels like heaven when i hug her.. I feel the love.. i see the love that comes out of her eyes when she looks at me. i still love the "prashad" she prepares for me.. i still love the "aaloo paratha" she makes only for me..
i dont blv in God now.. but people around me say i should thank to him for giving me such a wonderful life.. i thank Him for giving me such wonderful persons in my life.
