~~~AGAIN~~~

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It was early morning.. around 5 A.M. when Jasbir's cell started ringing.. It rang once.. then twice.. thrice.. but all calls went un-attended..
Shruti.. she never had to make so many calls.. Jasbir always respoded.. midnight sleep.. office meeting.. whatever be the situation.. Shruti always got an answer from him before she tried for 2nd time..

But today was something different.. almost like yesterday...

Last night when she called.. Jasbir threw the fone hard on the floor.. Shruti coundnt even complete what she wanted to say.."Jasbir.. I am sorry.. please listen to me.. I.."

Almost 30 hours .. and she couldnt sleep.. she desperately wanted to talk to Jasbir... who by no means was answering to her..She knew she was wrong.. she knew Jasbir loved him much more than she could ask anyone in her life.. but she never expected him to react in this manner.. not answering her call.. not calling her..

few months back.. Jasbir told her.."Shruti.. I love your voice.. the way you speak.. the way you call out my name..I love to listen each word of yours.. and.. I love to see your eyes when you speak.. they go so deep when u have heart in your words.. I love to see your lips.. when you speak.. and when they join.. I feel its me and you who are meeting each other.. in ur every word.."

but now.. he wouldnt talk to her.. wouldnt meet her.. he said her once.."The day i will get to know.. you wont be mine.. i will end my life.. there is no point in living.. like a dead man." and it was then the second time when Shruti slapped Jasbir.. after that he promised.. he would never do that..

she couldnt wait more.. she rushed towards Jasbir's home.. she reached there in about half an hour..

pushed the door bell.. and his grandfather came out.. she touched his Grand Pa's feet.. and asked about Jasbir.. and got the news that he dint come from office yet.. she tried calling him again.. but found that the mobile was ringing somewhere inside.. inside the house.. she very well knew the ringtone.. it wasnt changed since she had once set.. when one day they were sitting in the park... it was her favourite song.. that they both heard amlost 100 times that day.. with one earphone in each of their ear.. their heads and heart joined..

she rushed inside the house.. following where the sound came from.. she went inside the bedroom.. and found that he left the mobile at the home only... his Grand Father came from behind.. said to her.."O mobile ghar te chhadd gaya.. main almaari wich rakh dittaa.. kii gal ho gayi..? enni subaah..?" (he left mobil at the home only.. i kept it in almirah.. but what happened..? early morning..)..

Shruti.. she had now tears in her eyes.. she hugged his Grand Pa... and cried her heart out.. she told everything.. that happened just 2 days back.."Dadaji.. you might not be knowing.. my father has arranged my marriage to a guy of our community.. my sister.. she did love marriage few months back.. but now she is going through a very tough phase.. she is getting divorced.. my father was very worried.. and without asking me.. fixed my marriage to his friend's son.. i dont like him at all.. I love Jas.. I got him back after 10 years.. that night when i saw him.. I felt I got my life back.. I have lost him once... I dont want to lose him again..

dadaji.. we met 2 days back.. I said everything to him.. he asked me to run away with him.. he said he could not live without me.. I said.. this cant be done.. just for my own sake of happiness.. I cant ruin my parent's lives.. your family reputation will also be at stake.. they will lose the confidence of living happily.. walking their heads up.. shame is not the gift that we are ought to return for their love towards us.. after that we never talked.. its been 2 days.. he has not called.. he is not picking my call since yesterday.."

Dadaji consoled her.. patted her back.. and asked her to calm down.. gave her a cup of tea.. and asked her to wait till he arrives.. they can then clear everything.. that is stuck between them.. and asked her to pray to God.. HE will help..

then after few minutes.. Shruti's cell started ringing.. his dad called.. definitely.. finding his daughter missing .. he would be worried.. she picked up the call.. "Shruti.. where are you..? Come home.." He said only this much.. and dropped the call..

she touched Jasbir's Grand Pa's feet again.. and asked for his blessings.. and left for her home..
as she went inside.. she saw Jasbir in her room.. looking at the pictures Shruti had framed in her room.. on her table.. one of them where when they were at the beachside.. hands in hands and beautiful sunset in the background..

her dad followed her in the room.. "Jasbir came so early in the morning.. looking for you.. and you wre not here.. this is not good.. I am telling this for the last time.. stop all this now.." and he left the room murmuring something..

Shruti's eyes were all wet.. the kohl had totally disppeared.. making black streaks on her cheeks.. she was still crying.. and crying she went on knees.. her face covered in her hands.. she was hurt.. she couldnot marry the guy she loved most.. her father wont let her..

Jasbir went to pick her.. wiped her tears.. and made her sit on the bed.. and gave her some water..

"I've talked to your Papa.. I have said him that we will not do any such thing that will put a shadow of shame on their lives.. I just came to say this to you.. I couldnt sleep since 2 days.. everytime when you called.. I thought what to say..? I had nothing left in my life.. after I came to know that you wont be... " and he stammered.. he recollected his words.. stopped his heart from crying.. and continued.. "I will live the way I have lived past 10 years.. with you in my heart... without you in front of my eyes.. but I want you to be happy.. happy for your parents.. for your life.."

Shruti was still crying.. she couldnot stop.. her whole body ached.. tears were all dried up.. crying she clutched Jasbir's hand.. and said "sorry..".. Jasbir had a long look of her face.. and he left..